haven't updated in a while

So I thought I should write even though I'm not sure what I'm going to write yet. I am back to teaching science and the kids are glad. I hope that the sacrifice we made by teaching math for 4 weeks was worth it for the kids and that they hopefully perform better for it. As much as I don't think that the testing should be like it is you have to deal with what is in place now and it would be bad if our kids don't do well. All I can do know is hope they paid attention enough to do well. I'm just glad to be back to my subject.

We're now officially trying to conceive. I'm surprised at my nervousness but I shouldn't be, I'm a worry wart. Both of my sisters have had some problems with infertility so even though I'm trying not to think about that, it is in the back of my mind. I guess it's in the Lord's hands now and I know he has the best plan in mind for me. I just hope that plan involves conception before too long. I also really don't want to teach a full year next year but if we don't conceive it would make more sense for me to finish out the year because I would make more money as a 5th year science teacher (I have a 3k stipend) than Dave would as a first year art teacher, if he could find a job mid year. Being grown up certainly is complicated! It's definitely a growing experience for me. I may love next year and be glad I get to stay the whole year or be sad to leave (depending on if Dave gets a job or not or if we have a baby). I just hope that I have the power to let go of this now that I have it written down. I don't want to worry. I just want to be happy for this new phase in our lives. I pray that I can just be happy and grow from whatever happens because I know that any growth I have will make me a better mom whenever the Lord blesses us in that capacity. I just have to remember it will happen. I think I'll go read my patriarchal blessing now . . . .

Dave's Paintings

He's so talented! The pics aren't great but you get the idea . . . really awesome work!